I’m haunted by a sense of inadequacy, feeling insufficient for her, for myself, and seemingly for everyone. Your gaze often seems to yearn for something beyond what I can offer, even when I'm giving my utmost. Despite my efforts, I'm perpetually caught in the whirlwind of believing you expect more from me. All I seek is happiness, yet it eludes me, leaving me with an ever-growing burden, a plate perpetually heaping with unmet expectations and unresolved desires.
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Jonathan Sarita Maria is a Gothic poet from Whittier, California, whose literary journey is as compelling as his verses. A former professional MMA fighter, his first foray into the literary world came in 2021 when he was captivated by the dark allure of Gothic tales and horror prose. Jonathan's work, deeply rooted in the psychological exploration of horror and fantasy, challenges readers to question the nature of fear and reality. He imagines a future filled with inspiration drawn from New York's vibrant life, aspiring to write 100 books. However, Jonathan finds a special joy in live poetry readings, valuing the direct connection and shared emotional journey with his audience. He also contributes to his community by teaching Jiu-Jitsu and working as a behavioral health technician. Family is central to Jonathan's life, he cherishes the time spent with his children, sharing life's quieter moments.